Un:Cut

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now i'm in this deserted dry land, with no water and no air...
no sun, and there's no days or nights...
this laziness is useless.
and if there's anything i can do, to overcome this, could you tell me or should I find it out myself?
my motivation - used to feel so solid - now, it's yawning.
my questions about my upsets - feel so lame. so not-attractive, so not-attempted. too exhausted to ask...
there's no way. no spirit left.
no power to effort...
i wish i'm dying, but i'm not.
i'm alive, but meaningless...

are these the words that often been spoken by a person who forgets god for such a long time?
because if they are,
can i make a conclusion, that god is the most NOT romantic soul in this world...?
by being far away from it, i can feel so deep, so romantic, so sadly desperate...
but still god, you're the greatest of all, even if you're not romantic.