Future isn't future until you ready for it

Yes, apparently everyone has futures,
including you.
It is not a destiny, your past & present might be.
But future, is something that you crave for.
Something that kept you breathing and
waiting and reaching, because it is oh so full of mystery.
I kept thinking of future, until I'm really tired
contemplating about it and all.
So I tried to work on it, I chased it.
I choose it. I choose to step forward.
I knocked all the closed doors,
some took a peek and welcome me,
some don't give a damn about me.
I tried to be a pleasant guest and they tried
to be a nice host, but somehow, I am still a guest.
I am still a guest to my future.
So what do I get? Disappointment? Getting down?
Of course, at first.
Sometimes I am still now, because I am such
an impatient human.
But think about it. Re-fucking-think it.
What exactly do you get?
Success and failure, they both can't be meaningless.
What's in between is the brightest part of your travel.
They cooked your soul and mind and principals,
into some state of character that people would say:
"Well done!"
You're not raw. You're not short.
Your travel gets further.
You have so much more varieties in your sight.
You see the world in such a wide perspective, and it's getting wider.
Even I still don't see my future there.
But I don't live and stay in such a dark and narrow space.
I'm not afraid in failure, neither rejection.
I'm afraid in phony praises. I'm afraid in fake smiles.
I don't care about how success I am will be in my future,
what I care about is,
if I fail and I fall, how brave I will be to accept it
and to learn from it
and to be grateful about it
and to finally get something precious out of it.

Look, future isn't future until you're ready for it.
And if you're not ready with what you're dealing now,
you definitely can't stand your future.