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L hei sweets. what's with the gloomy face?
N nothing
L and that tired voice?
N nothing.
L how's your day?
N not good
L you wanna tell me, why is not good?
N (stared L) i'm stupid
L could you tell me more?
N i suck on two projects today. i can't make good design. and i'm being defensive at it, while the truth is, i'm the one who suck. i hate myself.
L (kissed N's forehead) you'll have better days.
N and all my friends really annoying today. i have to make two online reservations for them. i really hate that my sales team is too ignorant to provide me proper brief, so i got the wrong one. and my account is being perfectionist, while the other day before she ask me not too work on things too hard. i'm too tired to make an argument, so now i just hate myself.

N and oh. i made the wrong layout. misconception.

N and just in time i really want to see you, i remember that i have already promise an old friend a dinner, and she already come, so i can't cancel. and another friend was also coming. so i have to pretend that i'm okay when i updated them my latest life, because i don't want to make other people infected by my lousy mood.

N and i'm hurt by my mom and bro this morning. they never, like once, appreciate all the things i have done. they just keep wanting more and keep thinking that money grows in the back of my head. i love them, but why do they keep asking me things i can't afford?

N everything is shit. except you.

L thank you.
N i'm sorry for being cranky. so how's your day?
L they decide to hire me for a month, may is a busy month. starting tomorrow. they gave me about 500 dollars. what do you think?
N baby, that's good. 500 dollars not bad at all. so what will you do?
L yeah the salary is bigger here. basically technical supporting and gear maintenance supervisor. i'm gonna see how it comes.
N you're lucky. it's so hard to get a job here. you made me proud.
L teach me good english.
N i'm not good myself, but, sure.
L you're good enough.
N (laughed) no, my english suck. but you're worse, hahaha.
L (laughed)

L hei.
N hmm?
L it's okay for being stupid.
N ah. no. not like this.
L no. listen to me. you have to accept that sometimes you can do stupid things.
N (shook head)
L listen. (held N's head gently) you're not like this all your life. and you know that. today is suck, it's suck, people are suck and you maybe suck, but yesterday was not. and tomorrow is a surprise.

L what can you ask for more?

L if i hold you, would that make you feel a little bit better?
N (nodded)