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noran: nothing to lose. faith is dangerous anyway

dels: hehehee
dels: is it?
dels: why is that?
noran: it provides you expectations of things you cant predict
dels: hhhmmm...I'm a blankheaded today.... meaning?
noran: like:
noran: you have faith on the strength of your boyfriend. when all of the sudden he lost a war and get beaten, you dont know what to do
noran: you have a faith, that your best friend wont leave you
noran: all of the sudden, something came up, he has to go. and you're being left alone, broken hearted
dels: that sucks and sicks
noran: you have a faith that god will always take good care about you. but when you're in endless trouble, you start to question god's intention.
noran: why with the funny & torturing way?
noran: why cant it be plain nice?
noran: faith distracts.
noran: you think you can count on something, while actually, you dont.
noran: you're the only one left to count.
noran: :D
dels: so, what the best then? have no faith at all?

noran: only have faith to yourself :D
noran: never, ever, to anything/anyone else
dels: I dont believe in myself anyway
dels: wuahahaahhahahaha

noran: then you're in deep trouble :))
noran: i dont believe in myself either, but i have to, because i cant believe anybody else
noran: i'm the best deal i have now

dels: I'm in a deep shit
noran: have faith in yourself. maybe you think you're not decent to be hope for
noran: but you're better than anything/one else
noran: ok you're not good at all, but others are craaaaazy bad. so you're better.

dels: You're the best deal you have now, so can I just trust you then :-P

noran: hahahahahaha

dels: so, if we must only have faith in ourself then we are better than anything/one else, is that what you are trying to tell me ?
noran: well you can read it that way.
noran: you can never hold on to other than yourself

dels: or we just THINK that we're better than others
noran: hey
noran: whats necessary is not to be strong, but to feel strong
noran: that is, my friend, faith to yourself
dels: isn't it BE better than FEEL?
dels: My god I really Lost my faith already!!!!!!
dels: and lose my mind
noran: haha what the hell happen to you?
noran: (no, feeling is stronger than being)
noran: (being strong without feeling strong, is useless)

dels: I believe that I will die....alone!

noran: dude, everybody dies alone
noran: unless if you die in a massive bombing attack
noran: or in a train crash
dels: You got the point. We're all gonna die alone...

noran: yeah, so?
noran: whats bugging you with the fact?

dels: but at least we know that even if she/he won't be at ur side when you die, you know that they care, love, and think about you. That'll make you die in peace and you won't feel alone by yourself

noran: aha
dels: I have no one

noran: so you're afraid that no one love you enough?
noran: well you have one. i do. i love you enough, i'll come to your funeral and be the most broken-hearted. seriously.

dels: My god...I've been waiting too long to hear someone telling me that. Finally...

noran: hahaha

dels: will you really brokenhearted for me at my funeral?
noran: you kidding me! i'll cry like a baby. they will think i'm crazy
noran: hahaha

dels: Do you think I deserve your sadness and your lost?
noran: i don't whats right for you to deserve. but if you ask, will i gonna lost you and being devastated knowing you're not in this world again? i'd say, dude, that is rhetoric right? i'd feel like dying too knowing that! i'd crashed. i'm gonna be a mess until i dont know when
noranbakrie: you help me a lot. and you help others a lot.
noran: so i'm sure a lot of people will crashed if that day come
noran: why do you always feel lonely even in the crowd, eh? haha





dels: Well, we don't really see each other a lot, and it is difficult to find time that suitable for bot of us to meet up, but I know I can always count on you. Anytime, anywhere
dels: I'm sorry that I can't always be a good friend and be there for you....I really am. But it doesn't mean that I forget you
noran: haha yeaaaah, we get busy. but i never forget them who i love. you included
noran: no worries. i'll try my best so you can always count on me. its my pleasure anyway
dels: Thanks so much. We don't really talk a lot, but with you, it s surely a useful conversation when we do
noran: >:D<

dels: Hey, it is not a promise, but lets try meet up then, citoz or pim for will smith new movie, what do you say?
noran: when? i cant tonight & weekend. (going to pulau seribu tomorrow, wanna come?)
noran: monday's good for me
dels: Monday's not good for me. Tuesday is.
noran: ok tuesdays great
noran: why cant you join tom?
noran: i have a perfectly stranded little island, name pulau semak daun
noran: its heavenly there, perfect place to contemplate
noran: no one else in the island but us
dels: Sounds nice, but I've got a lot of to do back home, promise to help my mom....
noran: haha ok then. lets just to to movie
noran: gotta go though. i have to come to the office
noran: still in my home now haha
dels: oke. Tuesday. Thanks a lot. I'll c u soon. Take care
dels: bye norsky