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"Baby, can I please put this one snap of you in my website?"

Ngeliat sekilas dengan pandangan sebel, trus geleng-geleng kepala.

"Just one. I really love this one. You're so preeeety here, it suits my set. The Under Our Skin. Puhleeeease, yah sayang yah?"

Balik maenan laptop dan nyuekin.

(Ngambek.) "Popooooo.... pemalu amat sih. Kan aku jarang tarok foto pacar di internet, sekali-sekali boleh dong. Bukan internet drama kok. You're just a model here,"

"No. We have that policy. You're not friggin Nan Goldin, baby. Don't put personal pictures online. Kalo nulis-nulis okelah terserah kamu, but no pictures. I'm not your model, I'm your boyfriend."

"I know that."

"Don't. Don't mix personal stuff with your artwork."

"People does that all the time, it's okay."

"Well, I'm not an episode of your reality show, okay? Kamu liat Patrick Tsai kan, kamu tau semua cerita Hasisi Park dan pacarnya dari foto-foto mereka. Aku nggak mau dijadiin objek kayak gitu. And now, they all broke-up, so what's the next sequel? Find new boyfriend, and people keep watching you. And you back alone, and you let the whole world know. It's just silly.
Everyone has a life, you know. Keep it to ourselves. Why would you let the whole world witness it?"

"Nggak segitunya juga! Just one picture. I have my friends pictures there on my website, the only one I don't have is the most important one: you.

Kamu parno nggak jelas. Nyebelin. I'm not exposing anything, dasar tukang tuduh. I just love this one picture.

But drop it. Ya udahlah. Nggak worthed lagi ngomong sama orang aneh kayak kamu."

"I'm here with you. 24/7. You don't need me on the internet."

"Yeaaah, aku juga tau! Look, I just think I should share things that inspire me. I'm not a spotlight seeker, I doubt anyone would ever care about my photos, okay? But I do care. I want some of you there. Is that too much to ask?" (Sensi mau PMS jadi ngomongnya udah rada sesenggukan) "Why you sooooo mean....?

Me no like. You, go away."

"Jangan ngambek dong, Mo. Aku nggak nuduh kamu apa-apa. Tapi kamu tau udah banyak orang add aku di facebook, karena tulisan-tulisan kamu. Apa jadinya kalo ada foto-foto kita sekalian? Aku kangen pacaran kita yang dulu, dimana cuma kita berdua yang tau apa yang kita lakuin dan apa yang terjadi di antara kita.
How can you control the internet, baby? You can't.
Look, I know it's not your fault. You never intend to scream out and push our life to open space. It's just, you have that thing, you know. That thing that attracts people, from the way you write and take pictures. They want to know more about you, even I, want to know more about you by reading your stuffs. They're amazing. How can I not falling for you?"

"G-ooooo-mmmmm.... bal."

"You shoud know that I'm a man with authority. I want to have you for real, I want you to have me for real. Okay?
Get what I mean? I'm not a part of your internet life. I'm your whole life."

(Manyun) "Lina Scheynius does that. She takes pictures of her husband, inspired by him, and they are happily married until now."

"You are Noran Bakrie. My Noran Bakrie." Narok laptop di samping, narik tangan saya yang emoh, maksa saya duduk di pangkuannya. "You don't get inspiration from me, you're the one who's inspiring me." Pelan-pelan mulutnya mengejakan kata-kata aiiii-lof-yuuuu tanpa suara. Lalu mencium bibirku yang masih ngambek. Hwee. Dalam hati sebenarnya nggak setuju sama cara pikirnya, tapi lagi-lagi dipaksa kalah. ><