Un:Cut

"you know what you're doing, woman?
you're trying to make me hate you.

that's why you're fooling around with this hong kong curator dude
and scream it out loud in your fucking plurk or blog so my friends can see what you're doing
and tell me all about it.

that's why you're acting out and going out at nights making yourself drunk & wasted
that's why you cause me so much trouble.

that's why you decided to go to this fucking underworld concert in singapore
breaking your credit cards once again
sleeping over in your ex's pad. and tell me all about it out loud.

fuck you. you don't even like underworld,
you only heard one album. why would you go to singapore without any cash
and brag your fucking stupidity to me.
and you? bunking on jacy's couch??
if you want to fuck her, you won't say a word about this to me.
i know it. you're that easy. if you fucking with people, you won't brag about it.
i know who you fucked behind me, who you want to fuck, and who you know you can't fuck.
you don't want to fuck jacy, believe me on that. you just want me to think about you fucking jacy.


and you know why, woman?

it's that fucking thailand jerk you think you love.
you want me to leave you,
so you can chase him.

you want me to hate you,
because you think it would be easier for me to leave you if i hate you.

now, answer this, woman.
stop acting out and have some balls, they don't call you "bang norman" for nothing, huh?

you think you so tough and all. now i want you to answer this,

if you want me to leave you, say it now. i will. i will leave you.
you don't need to think of another scenario about you being a jackass. that could save you some bother.
you will be single and free again.

don't talk about feelings and broken-hearts and shit. don't fucking bring it up! this is a mess already. i can't let you messing with me more than this.
just answer this one:

yes, or no. do you want me to leave you?"


- Geraldino M. Lubis
bedroom, 8 sept. 4 am.